NO, I’M NOT
okay, that has been said. And now stop texting me Iris Rietberg.
Remember my blog on January 1st, where I said that I don’t really miss “home”? Well, I start to miss a lot of things in The Netherlands. Like, my friends, family, vaulting and foooood. In that blog it seemed like I was going to extend. And it’s true: when I wrote that, I was more feeling like extending. But I also didn’t think about it carefully. And I wrote it down several tips and came to this conclusion. That I want to go home in August and start the next chapter of my life.
After that blog, a lot of people contacted me to give me advice. Thank you all, I appreciate it!
No one said: “come home”. No one said: “stay there”. What my friends and family told me was:
- “follow your heart”,
- “you’re young, enjoy your life”,
- “there’s enough time to go to University”,
- “any decision is right”,
- “make sure you won’t regret your choice”
- “think about it carefully”
- “It’s your decision”
- “I’m fine with anything, as long as you’re happy”
You were all super nice and you’re right. It’s my decision, I’m the only person who can make this choice. But, everyone who knows me knows that I’m not so good in making choices…………And how do I know what my hearts want? Or how do I make sure I won’t regret it?
I can’t imagaine how hard it’s going to be to leave this place.. This family, my family. I’m sure I’ll get homesick to here anyway. But I’ll keep in touch and I’m sure I’ll go to visit them as often as I can.
But I thought and talked about it a lot and I’m sure. I want to go home and I want to start University. I want to start a life. Not that I don’t have a life here, but yeah, it’s hard to explain. Au pairs would probably understand this. It’s like I’m standing still. It doesn’t feel like I’m learning a lot (like I did in school) and the new and exciting thing about it is kind of gone. I’m still having fun and I still do cool things, but a year is enough for me. This experience is amazing and I’ve learned so much. But it’s enough after one year. A second year isn’t going to bring me that much more. I want to do something different now.
I’m super ready and excited for university. I’m excited to see my friends and family again. I’m excited to do vaulting again. To ride a bike. To talk in Dutch. To see my Dutch babysit family again (who are expecting their fourth kid in July Yayy).
I’m looking forward to going home. But, home? Where is home? I’m going to study in Wageningen, what is in the same province as Lichtenvoorde (mom’s house & friends) and Doetinchem (dad’s house). But the public transport (what is free as a student) is terrible in my area. So it would take me two hours from Lichtenvoorde and 1,5 hours from Doetinchem to get to school. I haven’t decided yet where I’m gonna live. Eventually I’d like to find a room in Wageningen, but not for the first weeks. I think I’ll be with my mom during the weekend and during the week with my dad. We’ll see.
I also need to decide what I’m going to do in my travel month. My year as an au pair ends July 31st, but I can stay in the US for one more month. I get the change to travel through the States. But I’m not sure yet if and where I want to go. I kind of want to save money for studying and august is not the cheapest month to travel in. And I also would
like to be home for a few weeks
before university starts… But on the other hand, now I get the chance to see something I wouldn’t see when I’m in the Netherlands. As in, I wouldn’t travel all the way to Alaska from The Netherlands, because it’s really far.
The places in the US that are on top of my list are New Orleans and Austin, but both of those places are super-hot in August. And they’re not that far from the Netherlands, so I could go there in a school break.
Maybe California… I’ll see. Any advice, someone?
Soooooooooo, if you have any questions or anyting to see, post a comment below, email me, text me, facebook messenger me or find another way to contact me.
And if you’re a future au pair, or you know someone who is in the whole matching process: I know an amazing hostfamily and they are looking for a new au pair. If you’re interested, contact me!
Byeeebyeeee, thank you for reading this!